I recently purchased P!nk’s
most recent album/CD, The Truth About Love. Pink is an acquired taste for some, perhaps, and I
happen to be a fan, but even if you’re not, there’s a ballad about loss called “Beam
Me Up” that is beautiful and not her typical rock/pop/expletive sort of style. Here’s a portion of the lyrics:
In a parallel universe
Where nothin' breaks and nothin' hurts
There's a waltz playin' frozen in time
Blades of grass on tiny bare feet
I look at you and you're lookin' at me
Could you beam me up?
Give me a minute
I don't know what I'd say in it
I'd probably just stare
Happy just to be there holdin' your face
Beam me up
Let me be lighter
I'm tired of bein' a fighter
I think a minute's enough
Just beam me up
It was reported that
Pink wrote this song after having a miscarriage, which appears to be reflected
in the line, “blades of grass on tiny bare feet,” but that line brought me back
to these pictures, this day, in April 2003, on the lawn at Lone Star Park in
Grand Prairie, Texas. Macy was just
ALMOST about to take her very first steps.
Richard had been walking with her, her hands in his, and then he would place her down on her feet and step a few feet away,
reaching for her and coaxing her to walk.
She would reach and reach, but just wouldn’t take those first
steps. I was following them around with the
camera and video camera hoping to get those first steps recorded. One of the funniest parts of the day was figuring out that she didn’t like
the grass, because after we took her little sandals off, he would be lowering
her by the arms, and as her feet got close to the grass, she’d lift her legs
like a lever, not about to put her bare feet on the grass. It was so cute. He did it over and over just to watch her
legs come up like a robot. These pics are from after she finally decided it was okay to put her feet on the grass. She finally
took her first steps on her own a few hours later when we got back to the RV
--- on the nice, soft carpet. We were
all three beaming. That was a great day and weekend. I even got to catch up with my girlfriend, Staci, and her little girl, Kylee, and of course, Richard had both Macy and Kylee in tow (pic below).
This evening, she has
her first school dance, and next week, she’ll have her 5th Grade
Graduation. More milestones she’s
crossing without him here. She’s growing
up so fast, and I find myself constantly trying to go back in time. The memories
are amazing and excruciating at the same time. I’ll always be thankful, but it’s impossible
not to fall back into the “Why him? Why
her? Why us?” from time to time.
I won’t get it right all of the time, HB, but I’m trying. Could you beam me up? Give me a minute……….
Here’s the full lyrics
from “Beam Me Up.” It’s worth the itunes
download. (More pics below)
In a parallel universe
Where nothin' breaks and nothin' hurts
There's a waltz playin' frozen in time
Blades of grass on tiny bare feet
I look at you and you're lookin' at me
Could you beam me up
Give me a minute
I don't know what I'd say in it
I'd probably just stare
Happy just to be there holdin' your face
Beam me up
Let me be lighter
I'm tired of bein' a fighter
I think a minute's enough
Just beam me up
Saw a blackbird soarin' in the sky
Barely a breath, I caught one last sight
Tell me that was you sayin' goodbye
There are times I feel a shiver and cold
It only happens when I'm on my own
That's how you tell me I'm not alone
Could you beam me up
Give me a minute
I don't know what I'd say in it
I'd probably just stare
Happy just to be there holdin' your face
Beam me up
Let me be lighter
I'm tired of bein' a fighter
I think a minute's enough
Just beam me up
In my head I see your baby blues
I hear your voice, and I break in two
And now there's one of me with you
So when I need you, can I send you a sign?
I'll burn a candle and turn off the lights
I'll pick a star and watch you shine
Could you beam me up
Give me a minute
I don't know what I'd say in it
I'd probably just stare
Happy just to be there holdin' your face
Beam me up
Let me be lighter
I'm tired of bein' a fighter
I think a minute's enough
Just beam me up
Beam me up
Beam me up
Could you beam me up?
